Very very excited to share with you all that I am now working with @macaronbypatisse at our Buffalo Speedway HEB location on Mondays and Fridays starting today. We have 14 flavors in this location and my favorites that I’ve tried have got to be our seasonal cinnamon roll, and pumpkin spice as well as lavender white chocolate, and our hazelnut. If you happen to have a sweet tooth today come by and see me I’d love to see some familiar faces. 💜✌🍥
I wish I could be an Indian giver with the piece of myself that I’ve let just float away. Its like my spirit is the sand in an hour glass that broke and I’ve just be spilled all over the place. I wish I could have those pieces of myself back. I also wish it wouldn’t have taken me this long to realize the hole I have dug out in myself. This is me realizing that now Im the only one that can fill the hole. I have to keep reassuring myself though and that’s why Im writing this. So 6 months from now when I have a million reasons to be happy I can assess my progress I guess. Lately I’ve been so busy or exhausted from being busy that I’ve been numb so now I’ve actually had he time to stop and see that Im standing in a pool of my own blood because of what I’ve done to myself. I’m still standing though, and that’s really all that matters. I should have known better. I should have known that Id feel this way eventually.
Im just feeling alot of different things for different reasons most of which are my own fault and where are you supposed to go to escape yourself? You can’t run from yourself. There is no vacation from your mistakes. You’ve kinda just got deal with them head on. The best part about mistakes is that they’ve already happened and are a part of what yesterday was and the only thing keeping you away from where and what you want is the fact that you continue to think about what happened yesterday. Im glad I write these letters to myself I learn alot from it. You could call it therapy I guess. I do have a bunch of reasons to be happy though, its just difficult to focus on those right now. Its perfectly acceptable to be sad and unhappy sometimes. So tonight, I will cry and get it out of my system and tomorrow when I wake up I will be able to focus on a bright shiny new day.
"I think I might have inhaled you.
I can feel you behind my eyes.
You’ve gotten into my bloodstream.”
New obsession this week is this band Stateless. Idk how I haven’t heard of them but glad I stumbled upon them. This song in particular is such a beautiful tune. The lyrics are somewhat astonishing to me. What a thing to tell another person. Im glad there are other people in this world that feel this deeply about other humans. That’s really beautiful to me. With as much falsity in the world, finding something real and tangible enough to write something like that about is very rare and should be treasured.
As unintentional as your gaze may be, I am resurrected when you eyes fix themselves on me. I am a leaf in the wind. And I am as alive as the sky during a thunderstorm when you breathe. In your absence the air from my lungs follows you.
Are we going to talk about the episode where the tubby toast machine malfunctions and spews tubby toast everywhere and these fuckers party like look at them your toast machine busted ass and you’re rolling around in smiley bread my entire life
|—||Greg Bear (via observando)|
Haschógan; House God.
Tónenili: Water Sprinkler, Rain God.
Nayénezgani; Slayer of Alien Gods.
Tobadzischini, Yebichai War God.
Edward S. Curtis, Navaho ceremonial dress (Library of Congress), ca. 1904.